I’m sitting in my desk in front of my computer.
I’m wondering how I will catch the train to keep myself in the MKMMA journey. I am 2 article late and I didn’t review yet the webinar on week 17a that I’ve missed 2 weeks ago.
It’s been several days now that I keep telling myself that I’ll write my articles, review my assignments and do the work.
I still have that feeling of frustration.
I remembered a voice that said something like this : ” don’t train your brain to NOT finish what you’ve began “.
So I’m here, putting aside every excuses and tapping on my keyboard every thought, word and ideas that come to mind.
I set aside my perfectionist of organizing my articles in order to reach at least 400 words because I don’t want to write just for writing. I’d like to keep the work that I’ve been doing for several months : write an average of 400 words per article.
I’ve began like that, so I thought that I’ll continue on that same path.
Many distractions occurred this past several days. Some obligations that I’ve to update for my job, some assignment at home that I didn’t finish and keep in my mind, some stuff on the internet that I’ve just bought believing that it will advanced me to my goals.
I’ve lost focus but I’d like to catch the train. I’d like to RE-GAIN that focus that I’ve experienced one time in my life where everything was falling in place at the perfect time.
There is only one thing that come to mind regarding my situation : being organized. Hum … it seems that it’s the third article I wrote on that subject. Being organized mentally and environmentally.
I think that it is the most precious thing I need to fix right now if I want to move forward. The best part is that I know exactly what to do and how to do it. But maybe I have to redefine the WHY I have to do it.
I just re-beginning reading Og 3 times a day perfectly three days ago. It feel so good.
My goal for today is to write 3 articles : week 17a, week 18 and week 19. Beside my other work I have to do regarding my job and situation at home, that assignment is in my top 3 assignment that take me a lot of energy. Emotional energy. That feeling of non-accomplishment take me a lot of my energy.
This morning, I’ve written my To Do list. But before I’ve began writing, I’ve spend my time on my email inbox and facebook. Hey I was reading and watching some good stuff on personal development 🙂
What a beautiful excuse that I’ve made.
Now it’s late, and I have to go to work. I begin in 2 hours. That urgency moved me to open that blog admin panel to write.
And look what I’ve just did : I read 476 word on my screen right now. Hum … not bad. I see 7 red underlined words that I need to fix. I maybe need as well to fix some grammar but I don’t know if want to do that.
Two reasons : maybe I can use that article as a model of the imperfection. Second, maybe there are a lesson here that I need to remembered all the time : just start ! and the rest will follow. I just did it. Very happy and strange feeling of “accomplishment”.
It lead me to that quote from Don Shula :
” It’s the START that STOPS most people “
I feel a little good now that I’ve finished that article.
Let’s go re-read it, fix some errors and go write the next one … 🙂
Jimmy Master Key 